Sorry its too long
i need to study.....i'm in my uni and this is the crucial time where all i have to do is hit the books...but i've never been able to do that and can't do it now either...i just put down my book to ask this question and now i'll have my mind on this question until i get a satisfactory answer....i know i'm a freak..and even when the book is open i'll think about any possible thing except for studying...the thoughts just keep coming and going like a tv set and they're like not even in my control..i went to a psychiatrist around 2yrs back when i was in first year of uni..i know how i've scrapped through the exams.he just gave me some antidepressant drugs(lexapro) and they kinda changed me (that's what my mom says when i go home in holidays)...even i've noticed i fight a lot more less then i used to but its only because i don't reply or argue back anymore..the things still hurt me and even more since i haven't been able to answer back on their face and the thought that i'm not right in not telling them really what i think of them(well, that used o get me in a lot of trouble..still does but sometimes)..i know i can do much better in exams.... i don't know if i'm delusional but i've always thought that i'm very intelligent but never been able to prove it to others(and i don't know why but that's really necessary for someone in me)...Any help???? i'm 21 btw
